this song just gets me

i’m feeling super bummed ever since i came back from NOLA. i know i still need to write my sad entry about it, but my throat gets so full when i even look at the map. anyways, this song (please see “crosses” by jose gonzalez) makes me feel like i can soon write about it. it is a sweetness boiling from pain.

you know when you heat up butter and honey, and it creats this golden froth? that is this song. watching it roll into a slight bubble and at the end licking the frothy spoon you stirred it with. it’s still too hot and you may have burned the tip of your tongue, but it’s worth it. the sweetness wouldn’t be the same any later. just perfect.

lyrics:
Don’t you know that I’ll be around to guide you
Through your weakest moments to leave them behind you
Returning nightmares only shadows
We’ll cast some light and you’ll be alright for now
Crosses all over, heavy on your shoulders
The sirens inside you waiting to step forward
Disturbing silence darkens your sight
We’ll cast some light and you’ll be alright for now
Crosses all over the boulevard
The streets outside your window overflooded
People staring they know you’ve been broken
Repeatedly reminded by the looks on their faces
Ignore them tonight and you’ll be alright
We’ll cast some light and you’ll be alright

p.s. i got my driver’s permit today. my fourth one. i WILL get my license this time.